That doesn't make our problems any less important, but it does give us something to really be thankful for.
I am not homeless, I have food, I have a family that cares about me, I have many abilities that others could only dream of - My life is not that horrible.
I know that there are going to be times when I fall into the self-pity trap. There will be days when I feel like throwing myself on the ground and into a temper tantrum that could rival that of any two year old.
However, through all my day-to-day problems, issues, and frustrations I have the sense about me to understand that things could most definitely be worse.
A lot of us get caught up in that horrible little pity trap. We are so hyper-sensitive to our own suffering that we can't always immediately look outward to see that the grass isn't necessarily greener on the other side.
Everyone has issues, some large, some small but they're all significant to the ones experiencing said issues.
I know at any given moment someone is saying goodbye to a loved one.
At any given moment someone has just suffered from a massive heart attack.
At any given moment someone has a needle in their arm trying to rid themselves of a horrible sickness.
This is why, at every given moment, when the little things add up to big frustrations, when I feel like I want to pull all my hair out and scream at the top of my lungs, I can take a step back and look at my life from a different perspective.
It's not as bad as it seems. It could be worse.
I should be thankful. We all should be thankful.
It seems that my thoughts over the past year have been so scattered. I'm honestly all over the place. It's hard to function when you don't know if you're coming or going, right? I had so many things I wanted to accomplish as far as business goes but other than some freelance writing work, I haven't done nearly anything I had "planned" to do. I have no one to blame but myself. While, without a doubt, there have been numerous obstacles in my way, I didn't exactly fight hard to overcome any of them.
I realize I have too many things going on at once and I need to focus on one thing at a time but being the Renaissance Soul that I am, I find it extremely difficult, almost painful, to limit myself. If you haven't read the book Renaissance Soul, I highly recommend it. It's a book by Margarel Lobenstine about the kind of personality that I have -- always looking for something new, having many things going at once, not being able to settle on just one hobby, career, etc. This combined with my ADD makes for a wicked combination.
For now, it seems, I have too many distractions. I need to get my head into the right place. With everything that's been going on I have been neglecting my need for relaxation and meditation. I know I'll find a better place once I get back on track. Sorry if this post seems like a bunch of senseless rambling but I had to get it all out there. I'm preparing for a comeback of great proportions so I need to dump all the negative thoughts and just start over with a clean slate.